8:09 a.m. - 2004-01-06

m*,

im excited for you moving out & in with c*.. its a huge step, but i really freakin' envy you. did your granny tell you that i called the other night? she said she probably wouldnt see you for a while (and didnt sound happy about saying it, either) but she said she'd tell you about my mom.. if she didnt, here's the scoop: her stomach ultrasound (she was expecting ovarian cysts) was fine, they had to do it twice & had her scared to death. and her mammogram they had to do three times then brought the doctor in and she was sure she was going to hear the worst, but it turns out it's fibroids or something. so the last thing to deal with is her stomach & she's seeing a specialist about that sometime soon. she has constant diarrhea & vomiting & she's lost about thirty pounds in the last few months, but i think i already told you about that.

will you have a phone at yr new house? if so, you gotta give me the number so i can call you & stuff when you get settled in. and as for madeline & i coming to stay with you for a while -- i would LOVE that. we definitely need a change of pace & to get out of this house. i think if i spent a couple weeks [there], i'd lose 30lbs just because i'd be away from all the depression triggers that make me eat all the damned time.

madeline had her 15 month checkup yesterday & it went really well. the doctor was amazed by her & bragged on her.. her doctor is really really nice. mad still only weighs 22lbs, though, but she's still growing like she should be so the doctor wasnt concerned. she's actually eating real food now a little bit more .. because shes got most of her molars in in the last month or so. (ouch!)

i told sha.z the other night that he'd see maddy when a judge told me i had to let him. long story. he wasn't happy, though.

im glad you emailed me, ive been sitting here watching the today show for an hour .. i went to bed at 10pmish, and madeline woke up in the middle of the night & i brought her in here & she slept a little but finally started driving me crazy and wanting to play at about 5am. i put her in her bed, and she was fast asleep. i, of course, wasnt.

i hope youre well & baby's well & everyone else. i thought about calling joey last night to see how he was doing but i dont wanna seem too desperate for male attention. ;)

i love you & miss you terribly..
love,
tasha